Unpreventable sunset

In dying you became vibrant,
rusted reds clamour for the outside,
blue is banished to above, where we look
askance as if every question
deserves an answer, every bird
the ability to fly. In death
you smell of lillies, of fresh sawn pine
that returns memories of forest walks
and sunsets we could not prevent.

Duct tape

It holds the page together,
makes my pen a one-piece
and yet when I write
the day becomes scattered
between lines, scrawled
to the edges, unstuck
and dangerously close
to the graffiti decorating
the wall under the bridge
where empty needles lay.
If it weren't for the tape
torn white remnants would blow
down the street, sweep
up to the city, mache
the tallest building
with pieces of poetry.
If it weren't for the tape
my words would be
singularly spoilt.

returning from the past/never look back

She marches in, all burnt orange
and exploding smiles, a loud siren
calling, warning of impending calamity
that's already hit if she but knew it,
marches, leading the assault
to the table where she plonks and reigns
until one by one they leave
her preaching to empty chairs
that no longer sing her praises.

Made Up

There is a lady who paints her face
with such skill
that it bars neighbour's smiles,

stops them in their tracks
forcing them to step aside
as she passes from home

to car, to shops and back
as if she had no care left
no concerns of time, or food,

or dwindling money
that will be replenished, eventually.
No amount of tears

changes her stance, her face
must go on, regardless
of the memories that visit her

at night when it doesn't matter
if her eyeshadow is green, or blue.

Yellow Rapt

Smoke curls from his cigarette,
a carefully rolled papered tobacco
that will send him to his grave
sooner. He still speaks
his opinions, loudly, as if daring
others to disagree.
The yellow on his fingers
mimics the yellow that crawls inside
keeps him from calling bluff.

Earthbind

A dandelion opens itself to the wind
and sprinkle of first Autumn rain,
bows solemnly so the rush of sun
plays upon its petals, golden fingers
waving to the last monarch
that hovers in the garden, waiting
for the slow grind of seasons to pass,
the supple tease of wind to release seeds -
new plants for next Spring's confinement,
the slow death that binds us to the earth
from birth.

Change

One glance out the window
is all it takes
to send me scurrying out,
a craving for the green and golden
of Autumn. I know it is better

out there, better
than the purple and blue within
the unpolished panorama put on
for players each day who do nothing
more than fold their hands

and look up expecting answers
or at the very least, a release
from daily woes. Out there
they are all the same
looking for better, easier lives.

In here they strive one against another
as if trampling is the foundation
for change.

Fallen Sun

A walk along the beach
yields no treasures amongst the broken
shells, no dreams

of far away lands with Zeus Gods
or Amazonian women, no
bones to cross and lament
as we would our unseen dreams.

Instead we find the water-lapped sand
worn just enough to trick us
into walking over a fallen sun.

Seasons

I like the change of seasons,
search for the first leaf bud,
the first blossom, fire tree,
snow fall.

I watch for the ground to cool,
the cracks to close
to silence the crickets. I count them
the seasons, each as they pass
and wonder, does my body shed
seasons like the land?

Do I wear rain on my lips
flowers as eyes, fall in my hair?

Is my hearing cold, deathly silent
as it is in snow with only the wind
ringing the ears and numbing the nose.

They wait for roses
and I wait for the dawn of storms
that precedes the turn of seasons.

Rainy Night

Tonight the rain spatters
onto the tin shed roof
tree branches scratch
its side - a tormented protest
cries the end of Summer. It

is still hot. The cat
stretches and circles his nest,
the chaise stands steady
under his prodding paws.
Night gives voice to crickets,

wings to leaf that Autumn shoves
as if one brief flight
will render them free
before they are caught by the pull
of unsettled puddles.

New Zealand, a Country

of Spring waterfalls tumbling to rocks,
rivers swift and creeks babbling
tales of Summer's end, curling
across the rolling green countryside,

of mountains lording over the land
of crystal blue waters cradling
the islands and people
brown, black, white, round-eyed
or slanted, heads covered,
or not.

Of a country bathed
in the light of the Lord.

Things that are Important to Me

it was a birth of sorts in the summer
blue sky seemed to slip in
after cool dawns, slide through
the day and it wasn't until night
pushed it beyond the foot of the horizon,
that i realised another had passed,
one more day to add to the others
that centered me then disappeared
only to let night's haunts
drag me into a bad dreamland,
where black marks gathered and stuck
like ear wax on cotton buds.

Things that are Important to Me

Moon Pull

To wander with nature,
unadorned, listening

to the morepork's mournful night call
to watch the stars tuck in the sun,

to watch its downfall
at the horizon's foot.

It is not enough to believe blindly
the earth is round, I have to watch

the arc of the moon, to feel its pull
of tides, its push of night.

I am woman and no longer bleed.

Things that are Important to Me

i want to be upfront, so
you'll have to turn aside
your eyes at the sharp bits,
those phrases or words that bite
into your soul, heat your blood and remind you
just how alive you really are.
turn away until i have moved on,
turn back when you are ready
to join me again.

~

i like my breasts, they
remind me i am woman, not
that i need the reminder, i know,
but there are times others forget

the centuries of nurturing, the tender years
of love-soothes and nocturnal pacing
that has gone into the making of me.

my mothers worked fingers until their bones
were covered in wrinkled, freckled, hard skin.
they cooked and cleaned until even that skin
that held them together, began to burn away
the history their callouses carelessly covered.

they sold their wares to any bidders,
not just the highest, sold their souls
to the devil to save their favoured ones
the ones who stepped in their prints,
the girls who poked and prodded
sheets in boiling coppers, girls who slaved
over irons and ovens, who picked up the slack
and ran with it, barefoot, into their own homes.

sometimes nothing more than bones and broth
lay on their tables, nothing more than old papers
lay on their beds. sometimes
i wish i lived in less complex days, but really
i have no idea.

i won't wear a trouser suit, walk
with chin high, and briefcase swinging. i
wear a smile, skirts, and tops low enough to reveal
a slight shadow to leave no doubt in your mind that i
am woman.

Different Dreams

We conjure up the dream,
the cottage in the country

with its white picket fence,
the two point four children

and meat and three veg dinners,
the evening cops and robbers shows

on the tv in the corner. The dream
where we'd all work,

where needs were all well met,
and luxuries were the norm.

We lived it until the bubble burst,
the market crashed, petrol skyrocketed

until a Sunday drive turned
into afternoon walks

and the house was filled again
with the scent of hot homemade bread

from a different distant dream.

Saving grace for you

I'll pray for peace for you,
no matter that the sicknesses
are tearing your body apart,

wish for love and kindness,
for more sunrises than you can imagine,
for morning bird song and rainbows

and waterfalls. I'll wish for grace
that will carry you through, grace
that will guide you and me.
A saving grace.

Not everyone looks

I run them through my fingers, stones
cold and smooth to the touch, as if in some way
they can reassure me. A rosary could be chanted
in the space between each, a moon rise
welcomed by photographers, a dawn
promising the best of days - all
these things lift my eyes
to where I believe you settle. Not everyone
knows how to see you. Not everyone looks.

Some Days

Some days are bland,
grey sky spread to the horizon,

meals that don't tempt, nor
touch the sides as they're swallowed,

morose head-hanging
as if the economy sits inside, dragging

you down when all it takes
is one wrong move, or a silence

misconstrued for 'don't care'.
And then there are the others,

where one wink will set off bells,
disarm the most wary and leave them

panting, down on their knees
praying for more.

Christmas Tree

Look to the tree, its coloured lights
blazing as if night's stars have fallen;
the branches cradle them
and reflect the faces that search
each pinnacled scape
for some glimpse of a more bearable side. Paradise

beneath, and among the fashioned Summered mosses, lay
the dreams of children, small hopes
pinned below a tree, fifty feet high. Boxes
gaily wrapped and ribboned, gifts
with sharpened edges and soft, beckon
to be touched, gently shaken. Soon,

all too soon, the blessed morning
arrives and delight surpasses
yesterday's wondering. Lights dim
against a backdrop of smiles and laughter.